Blessings to be won?
2 Timothy 2:13 if we are faithless, he remains faithful—for he cannot deny himself.
I’m starting an intensive novel writing course with Penguin Publisher in just under two weeks. I’m beyond excited and expectant for what’s going to come from it. Excited and nervous. So nervous in fact, that every day I wonder if maybe I should just withdraw my application and ask for a refund. I mean, what if it all goes wrong? What if, in fact, I’m not called to write a novel after all!? And I’m just wasting my time and money?
I even found myself thinking of ways to “invite” God onto my course. I tried to convince Bradley to do a fast with me in preparation. And contemplating setting reminders on my phone to pray about the course every hour of the day (and setting reminders on Brad’s phone too, because, well, he’s my husband and surely the more the prayers the better?!). I found myself thinking that if I didn’t do all these things, maybe God wouldn’t be in the course with me, which would mean I wouldn’t do well.
‘How silly,’ you’re probably thinking to yourself. But I think we all do it more than we think. We underestimate God’s presence in our lives. We forget that He is always with us – through the good and the bad, the success and the failures, the mountain tops and the valley lows. He doesn’t need to be invited on to my course because He’s already there! I don’t need to pray a certain amount of times in order for Him to make my book a success.
Of course, there’s nothing wrong with fasting in preparation for something big coming up. In fact it’s amazing if you can work on having a regular, healthy prayer life! But just know, and marvel in the fact that God loves us unconditionally and He is always faithful. Base your life on the fact that you don’t need to earn His blessings or achieve 10/10 in the Sunday school pop quiz in order to be worthy of His time.
What happens on my course is in His hands, regardless of the outcome. I trust that He is my Shepherd, guiding me wherever I need to go. I trust that He hasn’t left me hanging. I trust all of this because I know that He is faithful, even when I’m not.
He’s with you now. He’s with you tomorrow. He’s with you forever more.