I have seen a few “Dear me” videos floating around the internet, where people tell their younger-self things they should know.
To be perfectly honest, I have been trying to write this letter for the past hour and a half. I have deleted over 1,000 words. So I have finally come to the conclusion that I don’t want to give you advice, younger Mieke.
Please don’t take this the wrong way – you make some pretty awful life choices at times. Some choices more costly than others… (cough, your degree, cough). But you know what? Your bad choices lead you to exactly where you need to be. It made you who you are now and you’re actually not that bad.
I will tell you one thing – something you actually already know but you keep pushing it into the back of your mind. In the middle of your bad choices and messy mistakes, when you feel you can’t go on anymore, you’ll meet God. You’ve met Him before. But this time, you’ll really meet Him. You’ll make Him a home in your heart. He’ll pick up the mess you’ve made and He’ll make it into something beautiful.
So, really you don’t need to worry. You’ll have your heart broken and fall into a fair few pits of disappointments but you always get back up again. And when you do, you get up stronger than you were before. But that’s not because you’re great, it’s because He’s great. Greater than you’ll ever know.