In this first year of blogging, I’ve had a lot of people ask me how I have the courage to write about my faith and not get embarrassed about it. It’s a good question. I thought I’d share my answer with you in today’s post.
For 20 years of my life I didn’t have the courage to even speak about my faith to my closest friends, let alone write about it on a public blog for the whole world to see. If I’m totally honest, I was really, really embarrassed about what I believed. I was afraid to offend people. I was scared that my friends would turn their backs on me. I was 100% convinced that people would consider me a loser and a freak.
But eventually there came a point when I found life depressing and heavy. I felt as if I was carrying the weight of the world on my back, and I was stumbling and falling over trying to walk through life. Because of this, I found myself hungry for more of God. I started filling my days with as much of Him as possible. I started listening to worship music, and I would watch sermons on my laptop in my spare time. I began to read book after book about God and anything to do with faith.
I had built this beautiful relationship with Him. Without even realising it, I had spent so much time with Him, getting to know Him. I felt as if I had finally filled the hole in my life.
Over time I felt a need to talk about Him. It was as if I had a boyfriend and I wanted to spill the beans because I was just so happy. I wanted to spread the word about His love and His peace – about how He tipped my world upside down and changed it for the better.
My only problem was that I didn’t know how to talk about Him. When I asked Him, He told me to write our love story. He told me that there were other girls out there who needed to find Him just like I have. He told me to put pen to paper and share the news.
For a while I was too afraid to go public. I was too scared about what people would think and what they might say. I prayed and prayed, asking God if this was definitely what He was calling me to do. One night He asked, do you not know that I am with you?
I realised that the Love of my life was right next to me. The King of Heaven was calling me to write. The God of miracles was holding my hand. Why was I so fearful? What did I have to lose, if the only One I needed was right by my side?
John 8:29 – “The one who sent me is with me; he has not left me alone, for I always do what pleases him”
Romans 1:16 – For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes.
Don’t let fear rule your life. Don’t let the thought of what other people might think stand in the way of what God is calling you to do. Walk in God’s will, and don’t be ashamed of it. There’s beauty in the gospel, in salvation. God placed us here on Earth to share the good news. We need to shine His Light in this dark, empty and awfully lonely world.