I have a wedding day countdown app on my phone (bit lame, I know), and I hadn’t opened it in a while until five minutes before I sat down to write this post. The number 33 sat boldly on the screen, staring at me. 33 days?!?! Where has the time gone, and why is it going so fast?!
Whenever anybody asks me how the wedding plans are coming along, I always say great, but time is going too fast. I mean, wedding plans couldn’t be going more great. Everything seems to have just fallen into place perfectly. My dress is finished, ready for collection a few days beforehand. I’ve had my hair and make-up trials. The flowers have been sorted out (and potentially the most exciting part of the day). The photographers have been good to go for a good few months now (although we still need to go for our engagement shoot). We have bought/sorted out the majority of our decor for the church and the barn. We’ve decided on our order of service, and our stationary has been ordered. Our chairs are hired and our DJ has been briefed on what music we’d like. Table plans have been put into place. My bridesmaids are good to go and jobs have been assigned. Champagne and white dressing gowns have been purchased for the morning of the wedding. The hen-do happened last Saturday (best day ever – thank you to all the beautiful girls in my life who made me smile all day long. I’ll hopefully upload photos from the day very, very soon). I have even worn in my wedding shoes.
Literally EVERYTHING is good to go – apart from my mind. I feel like time is racing ahead and I haven’t had a moment to really embrace everything that’s going on. I’m constantly thinking about our everyday life things, like what’s happening at youth every Friday and church every Sunday, my devotionals that need to be written and scheduled way ahead of time, the extra blog posts I don’t have time to write but probably should write, the lack of time I have to catch up with friends who I haven’t seen in ages, the other events that need to still happen at some point before the wedding, Bradley’s work schedule that keeps changing every other day, the clothes I still need to sort out for the honeymoon, and just everything!
I bet you’re reading this thinking oh Mieke, you’re becoming Mrs Maybury soon, why are you thinking about all of that? Well, I tell myself the same thing every day. I have to keep reminding myself that life is so good, I need to savour and enjoy every single moment of this amazing season of life that I’m in.
I have to trust that my friends understand and have grace towards the fact that I have little time to spend with them right now. I need to stick to what God has called me to do – my devotionals and youth, do them well and then accept that I can’t be everywhere and do everything. It’s not the end of the world if I can’t write a blog post about my skin care right now.
In two months time when the wedding and the honeymoon are over, I’ll regret not really enjoying this moment right now. I’ll kick myself for not making the most of our engagement and loving where God has me right this moment. God doesn’t want me to be totally stressed out, worried and overwhelmed the month before the best day of my life.
I’m learning to let go of what’s not important, putting a couple of boundaries in place here and there, and focusing solely on where God wants me to be and what He has called me to do. I’m leaning on His grace these next 33 days, as I say no to things that aren’t necessary (including the things I place on myself) and enjoying my last days as Mieke Kotze. He has poured out so much of His favour in the process of our wedding planning, and I am beyond thankful for how smoothly things have come together.
I apologise if this isn’t quite the Wedding Wednesday post you expected today, but I felt like splurging it all out. And hey, I guess it’s better than no WW at all, right?!